sigh...T.T

Well I'm kinda feel a looser or something. Well I know I'm not supposed to feel this way and I don't blame anyone. I just wanna feel like this right now. *sigh*
Well it's like this, I just congratulated two people in one day for having a promotion in the forum as gfx members. Well good for them I think they really deserve it coz' they really have a nice creation of siggys and everything. Though they're attitude is somehow rude but they still get the position. And I know you're wondering so what?!? well it's just that I've been long there, I also tried for an application, I am really an active member, but they stop hiring for the position that I want. If I'm gonna apply for the gfx creation my creation are not that good they still for noobs. x__x now that they are mods they surely gonna have the authority of going to private forums though I know that there's nothing much on their threads..lol

On the other hand I'm feeling kinda happy coz' i wish the mods promoted all the members as mods and they left me as just being a member. at least I have the original color of my name. lol xD kinda out of place for me but I really like the feeling of being alone somehow...^^